Growing Up Before You Know It

The imminent arrival of our son (daughter?) has started me thinking fatherly thoughts. In less than six month’s time, I will be face to face with my first child. How will I know how to act? I’ve never been a father before! What if I don’t have an answer when I need one? The responsibility can be terrifying if you let it. Those these questions have crossed my mind, I have always been a “fly by the seat of my pants” kind of guy. I’ll figure it out somehow.

The Fatherly Thinking Phase(tm) led to other thoughts as I was saying goodnight to my wife. Thoughts about my own childhood.

I tried to remember the last time I had been hoisted up into the arms of a parent. This kind of thing I take for granted when I do it for my neices and nephews. I pick them up and dangle them, giggling, upside down.

As a kid, the best feeling in the world was to be held by my mom or dad. And one day they put me down for what was to be the very last time. And at the time I didn’t even know it.

Moments like these go by so fast and then they’re gone forever. Then one day you find yourself playing the other role, and then remember why it was so important.

The best fatherly advice I could ever ask for is from that little kid I used to be. The one who is still longing for one last hug.

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Last Day At Major Pharmaceutical Company, Inc.

Well, today is my last day here at Major Pharmaceutical Company, Inc. I have worked here on contract for six months, maintaining it’s LDAP directory. It has been a lot like flying: hours upon hours of boredom punctuated by seconds of sheer terror. My main task during the day is staying busy.

So, even though I will miss the people I work with, I will not miss the work. Nor the commute, which ranges between 30 minutes to an hour each day on horrible I-40. I never really intended to stick around.

The department, like the company, is in a state of flux. My boss has tendered his resignation this morning. Rumor has it that he was so distraught about my leaving that he couldn’t bear to continue here, but the real reason is that another company offered him more money. And my co-worker Josef is feeling the pressure, being the likely recipient of a bigger workload once the departures sink in. I wish him success.

As for me, I’ll be consulting for my own company, Siteseers Inc.. A number of local companies have Linux servers and need my expertise in keeping them running. I look forward to the challenge.

In a weird way, today doesn’t seem like a “last day” at all.

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